your madness drives me crazy

your madness drives me crazy
so fearful of what ever
muddles your head

so scared to act on what you say
so scared to be what you want
so scared

that you attack me
that you tear at me
you lie to me

wake from your dreams
I don't want to marry you
I work through
those sense memories
making my body and mouth react
thats all I do though... work through
reliving them would be hell.

I'm done with hell
I want to move on
let me work through
don't be so scared

Comfort

I'm reaching out for meaning in places that don't exist

I dream that you'll come around, you'll one day beg for mercy
and I'll turn you down.
and I'll forgive you.
and I'll reject you
and I'll welcome you back.

conflicted, my dreams strain my heart.

I wish you were interested in me,
And thus give my being value.
Give my hurts meaning and worth
but you don't.

my hurts are worthless
my being is worthless
to you

you, my onetime world.
the sails that guided my life
I'm worthless to you
and you're absent.

I know you don't care
I know you're gone
I know these and more
yet my heart at times
fantasizes

I'm healing
and I'm okay
yet sometimes
my heart
isn't

confusion

What am I supposed to feel?
empty?
abandoned?
rejected
dejected?

What do you want me to feel?
nothing?
pain?

losing a friend
so quickly
dumbfounds me so

I dont understand
I dont understand
I dont understand

what ever is going on in your head
must be in it alone.