An Easter people

We are an easter people
And Alleluia is our song*

We stand where we fell
we glorify in his love

we look to the future
where our pasts have lead

From the misery
to the mercy

our lives are enigmas
are signs contrary

Struggles and failures
weakness and darkness

yet the dark fades
on that fateful day

The day the tomb
rolled away

and empty the
tomb displayed

we have not made
the finish yet

hoping we strive
each day

to meet the end
with His grace

to sing Alleluia
in death's face

to sing Alleluia
at our past mistakes

Peter our guide
our redeemed example

Three times denied
the crucified

Three times replied
"you know Lord"

"you know Lord"
"you know Lord"

"That I love you"
Alleluia

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(Quote by St. JPII the Great)

I come

Oh my lord!
my God!
My king!
and master.

I fail every day to serve you
to fall at your feet and beg
for this life that serves
so poorly
so weakly

my hope is your mercy
yet i deserve death

Purify me
Renew me
Engulf me
Restore me.

Draw me to your depths
to the depths that burn
and torture
from sheer innocence

show me my darkness

the coal black
with your pure light

touch my pride
with your perfection
reveal my imperfection
my jealousy
my hatred
my darkness

and when I see
send our Mother
comfort me

heal the wounds
that this glass
may become clear

Lord you have me on my knees
my heart in your mouth
and I can't stand
I can't even kneel
I must fall

I don't know where to go
you overwhelm me sometimes
sometimes I'm taken
off guard
taken away
to a time I don't want

when we were still
and still hope remained

I don't want this
I don't want her
I don't want to remember
I want to be free

to be loved
to be understood
and cared for
I want peace
and you
and joy

why do you catch
me off guard?
why do you turn
my head?
when everything
in my soul says to keep looking
straight

why Lord.
Why?

Let this be over
let me be free.

Consumed

I see your face in the darkness shrouding
As we make love

sullen eyes filled with joy
staring past my sin

past my shroud

only you could ever know me.
only you can ever see past me

I don't know what to do or say
but just lie here with you
in my deepest chest
beating, thumping
throbbing your love
into my body
into my soul
into my very existence

only you can understand me.
only you care.

And I'm overwhelmed by this feeling
beyond the pleasures I've known
beyond the thoughts I've had

I'm stuck in a place that I don't want to move from
that I don't have to move from
that only you can keep me in

I'm fragile, and I fail.
Keep me in your embrace
in your arms
for eternity.

infinite Goodness,
please,
consume me.

Lead on.

Looking in your eyes
I know I've done something wrong.
But I won't let on.
I won't let on.

I've hurt you, and you don't know
you can't imagine
You're darling to my heart
and I've done something wrong.
so I won't let on,
I won't let on.

I don't know yet how to fix this
I don't know yet what I'll do
I don't know yet what to tell you.
but I've done something wrong.
So I won't let on,
I won't let on.

Let me sit here, beneath your cross
beneath the blood stains that purify
let me sit here and understand
all that I did,
let me understand.
Let me sit.
because I've done something wrong
and I won't let on,
I won't let on.

your madness drives me crazy

your madness drives me crazy
so fearful of what ever
muddles your head

so scared to act on what you say
so scared to be what you want
so scared

that you attack me
that you tear at me
you lie to me

wake from your dreams
I don't want to marry you
I work through
those sense memories
making my body and mouth react
thats all I do though... work through
reliving them would be hell.

I'm done with hell
I want to move on
let me work through
don't be so scared

Comfort

I'm reaching out for meaning in places that don't exist

I dream that you'll come around, you'll one day beg for mercy
and I'll turn you down.
and I'll forgive you.
and I'll reject you
and I'll welcome you back.

conflicted, my dreams strain my heart.

I wish you were interested in me,
And thus give my being value.
Give my hurts meaning and worth
but you don't.

my hurts are worthless
my being is worthless
to you

you, my onetime world.
the sails that guided my life
I'm worthless to you
and you're absent.

I know you don't care
I know you're gone
I know these and more
yet my heart at times
fantasizes

I'm healing
and I'm okay
yet sometimes
my heart
isn't