the desire of a divided heart

~410am
As I sit and wonder what and how I'm going to get things done
I'm exhasperated as to the mountains I must climb
to overcome and prevail
reports due on Philosophy and Politics
two things I never thought I'd do

years ago I was in the same place
with different faces about me
different jobs
different weather and lands
but the same place
nonetheless

Can I really progress? or is my life a circle of death?
spiralling inwards and going nowhere?
thoughts of miracles swirl
and I wonder if I can have another?
can God free me to be his?
can I have faith

years ago I was in the same place
with different faces about me
different jobs
different weather and lands
but the same place

the bear on my back grows
trying to call out, I seek you trying to give you my wholeness
but only pieces manage their way into your hands
pieces of a divided soul fighting to be set free.
I want the gift of Faith!

years ago I was in the same place
with different faces about me
different jobs
different weather and lands
but the same place

That time I did not believe... did not believe in life
in love, in sweetness, in grace... in You.
and you answered my prayer of ignorance
my challenge
a desire of a divided heart...
truth and Truth
the world and Reality.

Today, I'm in the same place
with different faces about me
different jobs
different weather and lands
different problems and prayers
but the same place

Set me free Lord,
Set me FREE!
~426am