divided

I don't understand
the splitness

two parts of me
contending

positioning
and fighting

seeking to trump
the other
to bump
the other from me

schizophrenic ideas
my mind burning
into ashes

why can't I have both?
be both
incorporate both
into a new me?

I don't want the decision
looming about my face
about my ears and tongue

here’s a stick,
beat it for me?