I dont know

I don't know why I fail so much so quickly so fast
every moment I fail when I am good, when I am bad...
time matters not, I fail
day or darkness... I fail
my desires fail
my life fails
failure seems all I know
I don't know!
spinning moments in my mind of hopes
flash as the darkness before my hands
my very body fights with my mind
both changing sides in the middle of the fight
neither obeying the master...
a failing master failing even more.